Change MayBe

Do people change I don’t think they do I don’t think anyone does we just go around and around and notice different parts of the circle each time it always comes back to circles and we think we change but really we were always the same the same people at the base because the base is the circle we keep going round and calling something different and he was always a jackass I just didn’t realize it before but that doesn’t change the fact that he had it inside him the whole time he didn’t just change he was and is and only now it’s showing and we all think we can change because we want to think it we want to think we know we can change because change means progress and progress is improvement and we want to we think we can look back and say now we’re better we’re moving forward but really we’re only moving in time and who’s to say what direction time goes anyway up down around forward backward we think because we want to we believe because we can and the illusion sticks but the circles and the bases stay the same and our progress is really just uncovering the base for what it is and fooling ourselves that it wasn’t there before or someone else hadn’t already uncovered it we think we’ve changed over time over centuries but really we still live the same lives and act the same way and our primal desires are there and our hearts and our minds and our loves and hates and beliefs and arguments and it’s all there its all been done before but does that mean that we aren’t worth it I don’t think so I don’t want to think so I think it’s even more worth it to strive to want to believe to connect but we can’t pretend and we can’t deny and I am going to say that he changed because if he didn’t then what does that mean for me for us for anything I think I am the same as I ever was I still connect the same pieces of spaghetti in my brain and ramble in the stagnant ideas and it all comes back but maybe change is subjective it is an idea and the idea of change is something that hasn’t changed either and if we believe in it maybe that’s what makes it exist maybe you have to have faith in change and faith to hope that it is real or else what is the idea there for?

I don’t know if I believe in change but I know I live my life like I do we all do so why pretend like I don’t believe, even if all my evidence is pointing to the circles and the falling back and the same same same never changing but what changes is the way we perceive ourselves even if ourselves were always there to begin with maybe it's the same spaghetti but the jumbles are tumbling so we connect different pieces the paths change the locks the maze the pile of spaghetti has so many hallways so many doors and windows and growing regrowing paths hedges bushes escape routes and we can't step out of the maze to wrap it all around our fork. Perception is the door the key the challenge the striving and I am striving to perceive the change I don’t think I see but I know somehow it must be there in the circle with the absolutes the definites and the maybes. Maybe may be as long as you I we can hope to think it maybe.